Two months after I decided to quit my corporate job so I could give more focus on my budding career in the academe, I found myself sitting in front of the internet wasting my time looking for another job which is absolutely the same as that I just abandoned.
How stupid. Really.
Reading through the few posts I had in this blog and being reminded of the dreams I keep in my heart, I knew that getting a similar job is the last thing I need to make my dreams alive. Perhaps it is true that humans tend to easily forget pain. Thus, allowing us to give in to temptations and commit the same mistakes twice.
I have been attending Bo Sanchez’ Feast every Sunday for more than five months now and I could gladly say that it made a huge impact in my life. It taught me many things and gave me the necessary courage to go in search of what would make me happy. It just rightfully deserves this space in my blog.
In one of his talks, Bo emphasized the need to finish strong. In terms of professional career, relationships, personal life and spiritual beliefs, finishing strong, much like success, requires patience, endurance and commitment. Oh but we all know that. However, he mentioned two very important multipliers that greatly affect how strong one would finish and eventually succeed. And these are Capacity and Character. Capacity is defined by one’s talents, gifts and potentials. Character is how one uses these.
I was greatly surprised by this revelation for it opened my eyes to the reasons of the major failures I had in my life. I started out strong (having the right Capacity) but finished wrong (lacking enough Character). It has always been that way. I have been blind about it all these time. I even put up reasons like, “I’m really not a finisher. It’s just not my thing.” But, reflecting over the character I upheld in the past years, I had a clear realization of why, most of the time, I fail.
Walking away from a job entails leaving behind the life I used to live. With it, I hope, I would also leave the bad habits I had and the mistakes I committed. With me I would carry only the lessons, the valuable lessons and the loving memories. Right now I just feel very fortunate. Many don’t get the chance, or afraid of the taking the chance, at a renewed life.
From this time on, I would only walk with faith. The Lord has been so kind and so generous to not limit me of chances to recreate my life. I had already been granted several chances before and had miserably failed. But now I’m dusting myself off and, with more confidence, will brave a new life – a life filled with success and happiness.
PS. The Feast is a prayer meeting led by Bo Sanchez every Sunday, 8:00am-10:00am and 10:30am-12:00nn at the PICC. If you wish to be part of it, please feel free to come.